admit it monday

today i want to admit that although i dream about having long locks of hair

that i could tease at the top and curl under,

looking all feminine and flow-y...

i miss short hair terribly!

it was during a particularly stressful time in my life

(read: college graduation portfolio show)

that i came home one day, grabbed a pair of scissors, and locked the bathroom door.

30 minutes later, i had chopped of all but an inch and a half of my hair.

it was completely liberating.

of course, looking down at all the hair now on the floor at my feet,

i freaked.

during the process of cutting-at-random,

i had imagined a pixie worthy of audrey.

not so.

it was lopy, choppy.

i didn't have a face for it, but still, i loved it so.

that is, till i felt like a total boy when i went out without make-up.

and sure, i compensated by wearing a ton of make up and glitter.

but at my best, with this cut, i felt my bravest.

but right now, i'm attempting for my hair to grow.

it does absolutely nothing for me after it reaches a certain length,

but it ups the anticipation for when i can get it cut short again

(i usually do this on my birthday month)

i can't wait for that satisfaction of the shears skimming through my hair

the length of it like sheets, dropping to the floor.

hopefully, i'll have a 'face' for it then?

less pudgy-er sides to highlight my high cheekbones...

i dream.

sunday summarie v11

a quick list of 5 things to summarize this weeks

inspirations/ findings & doings:

1. LBMA after dark.

art + support + keshot photobooths + great views of the long beach shoreline

what can i say?

good times.

2. veggie pad thai and green tea boba at via cafe in chinatown, la.

theres something about that particular combo that hits the spot.

i was c-r-a-n-k-y that afternoon,

but calmed down at via.

the low lit, offbeat scenery and eclectic music...

wins every time.

3. ashkhan.

my cousins used to babysit ashkhan when he was a kid,

and he was usually there whenever i was over.

somehow, i took notice of the little dude,

who'd crawl around in diapers on the entertainment room floor,

blocking my view of the television...

anyway, i was elated when i found out (a couple of years ago)

that he was doing well in the art/design world,

rising up and making a name for himself.

and late last year before i had my connect art show in chinatown,

i ducked into flockshop real quick

and discovered that he was selling his stuff there~

i was all proud and whatnot.

so when i heard about his show:

you forgot this on the way out

i had to go and support

his work is bad ass awesome!

4. baby jasmine's baptism.

i became a Godmother, officially, for the first time today.

(i'm not pictured, by the way...

in the photo are jasmine, her parents, and her primary Godparents)

it was sweet seeing jasmine, her parents, and all other Godparents...

looks like this little girl is gonna be well taken cared of/ looked after.

5. portraiture after ingres

i attended a lecture at the norton simon museum on portraiture,

and found it interesting and informative.

it was nice to gain some insight from the curator,

my only regret is that i didn't go downstairs

to see the exhibit that the lecture was derived from,

gaze

which will be closing april 5th.

looks like i'm gonna have to make another trip up.

admit it monday

probably not the most interesting admit it post,

but today i'm admitting to:

drinking 3liters of smart water a day

as in every other week or so,

i go to costco and buy smart water in bulk.

i go past the kirkland and arrowhead

and go for the liter bottles of smart water...

dodging sneers like 'does that water really make you smarter?'

ugh.

my boyfriend thinks it's fancy water.

i think it's easier to drink.

it's smooth and goes down easy.

basic point~ it gets me to drink adequate amounts of water for my body.

and for my size and weight, i need a lot of water.

i break it down with 3 1-liter bottles a day

(as opposed to to 6 average sized arrowhead bottles)

and i'll notice a difference when i meet my water-intake goals.

yes, i trip off this.

sounds ridiculous~ blogging about water,

but water is important!

at one point, at my sickest, i was downing penta...

which is great, but that stuff's crazy expensive!

(i found smart water to be similar, and therefore, a better deal)

i'm not so sure i follow along with all the health claims and stuff

but it tastes great. (yes, i can taste a difference with water)

another thing i'd like to admit:

i write words like

love, health, happiness

in sharpie on my water bottles.

... i totally believe in the power of intent!

sunday summarie v10

a quick list of 5 things to summarize this weeks

inspirations/ findings & doings:

1. i got to getting creative again.

flow is back, and i am ever thankful for that!

every day i am feeling better and better,

exercise and a more nutritious diet helps give an energy boost,

and i'm responding to rhythm and whatnot.

cool!

2. i painted.

it's not painting painting per se

but i am laying down color on canvas.

more of an intuitive, go with the flow type thing

rather than anything controlled

think playing instead of painting

making a mess.

the urban outfitters catalog was nearby

and somehow i started cutting out images i liked

and began gluing them to the background paintings i did

not exactly sure why i did that~

but i liked it

and realized that

these little 'practice' paintings/collages are really serving as

inspirational sketches for my next photography project...

little springboards from my imagination,

nice to have them come to life and mingle somewhere.

i can't really paint, you know...

but it sure is nice to put something together :)

3. i acquired some new loot.

i'm all into whimsy,

i can't help it.

bad ass:

oh deer:

4. i got snail mail.

thank you michelle :) !

5. my sister and i had a tea party,

pre viewing the midnight showing of alice in wonderland.

i can go on and on about this,

but i'll just say that 'it was amazing'

and thats it for this week

(didn't have too much going on)

curious to see what next week has in store~

sweet

ack! i couldn't resist!

thankful thursday v1

a list of random things i'm thankful for:

1. wii fit.

gym membership isn't exactly a necessity, and when going through finances with my sister, we decided that we'd cancel our gym membership, at least for the time being.

thankfully, we've got a number of workout options...

- there are parks close by, a nature trail, and the ocean

- my trampoline is set up and all ready to go

- i'm (im)patiently waiting for my hoop from hoopgirl to come in (can't wait!)

- my bike (if i ever get to learning how to ride it... and i will...)

but my favorite option/obsession right now is:

i know that i'll have to do more than just wii fit to make a difference,

but i'm excited to start a routine!

2. my golla camera bag.

i'm super thankful that i was

a.) able to come across the golla line of media bags at target

b.) able to order the exact bag that i wanted online, even if it wasn't in stores

c.) able to receive my order so quickly~

when it arrived at the door i jumped up an down like it was a gift :)

it looks like a lunch bag,

but holds all of my camera needs :)

what can i say? it's nifty!

and it's beautiful (i love good design!)

it makes me want to take it everywhere~

and i probably will do just that.

it's definitely easier to tote than my previous 'camera bags',

which really weren't camera bags at all...

an old jansport backpack that didn't have any support

and this orange ricardo traveler, which worked out okay, but was bulky...

oh, i don't know.

this one just feels right.

i'm happy with it!

3. stand up comedy.

i've been in an out of a little funk these past few weeks...

just when i feel alright and ready to go out into the world- it rains,

so i've spent most of the past month in this weird semi-slumber

it's been a little tough pulling myself out,

but i'm so glad that i have netflix and can watch movies instantly, at whim...

i've been choosing comedy lately,

and it just feels sooo good to let out a laugh.

i watched some margaret cho yesterday,

and laughed it out.

h-i-l-a-r-i-o-u-s!

i've seen some of her stand up before, and didn't think it was too funny,

boy am i thankful that i gave her a second try.

and thats it.

thanks for reading.

xo

whats in your bag?

1. planner/ organizer-

because even with a laptop and blackberry,

i like to literally pencil things in.

there's this sense of satisfaction of carrying an 'agenda'

2. hoop earrings, in silver.

its my go-to item for when i need to look like i at least give a damn

3. wallet. the smallest they had, actually.

4. diana mini 35mm camera.

analog is charming, beyond.

another plus: it's a great conversation starter

5. turtle shaped paperclip holder.

used to house my mini business cards. :)

6. blilss hand lotion.

perviously, i had ashy ass elbows!

7. burts bee's pomegranate lip balm.

smooth!

now i can't even go back to the regular beeswax balm.

8. sephora lipstick in merlot.

i switch between that and mac ruby woo

(but i kinda prefer red lipstick for the fall)

9. hello kitty journal/notebook.

i got it at barnes and nobles

(but it still had a 'sanrio' smell)

and use it for jotting random notes

(mainly from books i can't afford to buy in store)

10. highlighter in what my sister calls 'old yellow'

for emphasis, you know?

11.blackberry storm with kozyndan's bunny blossoms skin

i put my phone on vibrate and barely notice calls...

i am a huge texter though.

heh.

12. pencil case.

holds coins and lint and pens. a few of which are:

13. a blue sharpie and hello kitty pen (with geisha topper)

just for fun

and there you have it~

i just ordered the spring purse of my dreams,

so i'm sure all of this will be changing.

still kinda interesting to see the things that i deem necessary to take with me all the time.

and how thats changed over the years (i don't carry around as much make-up as i did as a teen)